Confusion

Leaf.
Falling.
Free.
Wind.
Scared.
Spin.
Twist.
Turn.
Jerk.
Branch.
Break.
Collapse.
Air.
Light.
Smooth.
Grass.
Soft.
Cool.
Safe.

I am not in control. My only actions are reactions. I have no power in myself. I am falling. I am entirely free. I am alone. I am held. I am a breath.

All I want is to be alone and quiet and still. But all I want is to be together and talking and fun.

Inside I feel so peaceful about life in its entirety, and at the same time I feel like contemplating each day leaves my mind a mess.

I have no idea what I'm doing right now, but I know what I'm doing, and I love it and I hate it.

Physical Exhaustion

can lead to
Spiritual Exhaustion.

"man"hood

If you actually read this, you probably already knew that I turned 18 on Friday. Supposedly I'm an adult now, a real man. I don't really feel any different. I think I would rather take life hour-by-hour and day-by-day instead of stage-by-stage. Every day I'm one day older than the day before. On Friday I became one day older than I was on Thursday, and that's enough of a change for me to handle. The shorter of measurements I use for my life, the more I think I'll enjoy it and appreciate. I might not get another 80 years, but chances are, I'll get another 80 days. I'm going to try to enjoy every day I can. I am truly thankful for the sunrise this morning, and for waking up, and for being able to breathe. He is faithful.

Gotta Catch'em All!

So I found my gameboy(advance SP) and my favorite pokémon game(Sapphire) the other day. And I've been playing almost non-stop. I might be addicted. And I'm definitely a loser.

ACB

As Cities Burn have the best lyrics I've ever heard in my life. I'm not kidding or exaggerating.

Sick

I'm sick.
And it's not very fun.
Although the resting is nice.
The aching and coughing are not.
But my voice sounds sweet.

retreat

this weekend!