Confusion

Leaf.
Falling.
Free.
Wind.
Scared.
Spin.
Twist.
Turn.
Jerk.
Branch.
Break.
Collapse.
Air.
Light.
Smooth.
Grass.
Soft.
Cool.
Safe.

I am not in control. My only actions are reactions. I have no power in myself. I am falling. I am entirely free. I am alone. I am held. I am a breath.

All I want is to be alone and quiet and still. But all I want is to be together and talking and fun.

Inside I feel so peaceful about life in its entirety, and at the same time I feel like contemplating each day leaves my mind a mess.

I have no idea what I'm doing right now, but I know what I'm doing, and I love it and I hate it.