More Confusion

I really just want to die and go to heaven.
I don't like dealing with things.
I don't like being the weak one.
I don't like failing repeatedly.
I don't like feeling depressed.
I don't like crying all the time.
I don't like wasting my time.
I don't like having no passion.
I don't like the way things are.
I don't like having such little faith.
I don't like waking up lately.

Praying for me would be an appropriate and very appreciated response.