falling asleep

i don't want to go to bed and fall asleep it takes forever and i lay there and think about falling asleep about not falling asleep about trying to fall asleep trying to pray about falling asleep about everything that i think about when i cant fall asleep and i think about everything about myself and what i do what i dont do what i should do what i could never do what i need to do in the morning every single day tomorrow what i should have done today all the time i had all the time it takes to fall asleep all the time i wasted tomorrow and the next day thinking about everything about how i can never fall asleep about how i dont even think most of the time i waste my time so much time thinking about not falling asleep not thinking all the things i could do all the time i have to think to waste to not think to fall asleep.