yes and no

the one thing that has always been there always
and never no never ever leaves even for a second
seems to me to always be that only thing that
i always try but never find a way to wrap my mind
around and put down in words or sounds or something else
because it's far and near and here and there and
it never makes sense how it doesn't make sense
even though it's everything i know but something
that i know almost absolutely nothing about.